Day 4 — Accomplishments, Big and Small.

 

 

We don’t always realize it, but each one of us had come a long way since diabetes first came into our life. It doesn’t matter if it’s been 5 weeks, 5 years or 50 years, you’ve done something outstanding diabetes-wise. So today let’s share the greatest accomplishment you’ve made in terms of dealing with your (or your loved one’s) diabetes. No accomplishment is too big or too small – think about self-acceptance, something you’ve mastered (pump / exercise / diet / etc.), making a tough care decision (finding a new endo or support group / choosing to use or not use a technology / etc.).

This topic hits an uncomfortable spot with me.  For the longest time I didn’t have diabetes.  I didn’t acknowledge it publicly, I hardly ever told people, and I never made it a big deal.  Oh, I would tell people if they inquired, but if they didn’t ask I didn’t offer.  I dealt with it privately.  Very privately.  I was good at dealing with it privately.  I hardly thought about it — whether my control was good or not.  It was just the way I dealt with it, no looking back, just figuring out how to control this thing so it didn’t interfere with the rest of my life.

That got exhausting though, and tension began to build within myself.  Ultimately I am too lazy to continue doing something that stresses me, so that tension turned to resolve and a “get over it” attitude.  (I also had two pumps break from moisture when I wore them clipped facing in on my belt…)

I’ve never had a problem controlling my diabetes.  I know my A1cs would be the envy of many a diabetic, but I’ve never thought of myself as successful in that regard, just mildly lucky.  I guess my success would be my ongoing battle against my tendency to fly off the radar and privatize my life with diabetes.  It’s a fine line I walk, between sharing and potentially helping people and remaining true to my personality.  I still don’t define or introduce myself as a diabetic and I don’t think I ever will, but there is a happy medium and I want to live right there.

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One response to “Day 4 — Accomplishments, Big and Small.

  1. Not everyone who lives with diabetes has to be a cheerleader – and each person needs to find their own comfort zone regarding how public they make it. It’s not healthy to keep everything bottled up inside, but it’s not necessary to shout it from the rooftops, either. I think you’re successfully finding that happy medium you speak of.

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